relieved? hell no!

my empty house has turned into a nicer shelter.
thanks to the neighbour in front.heh.

i just finish shooting my profile.
omg, it was really a nerve-wrecking.
i can feel like i was sooo fake.
i dont know why.i dont feel comfortable to be in front of the camera.

but done.
i dont know how it will be.
but if u watched me,
please don't laugh!!

invisible gap

i feel like we're drifting apart.

i feel you walk away.
each passing day, the distance seems to be greater.

i realized this long before today.
only now i have the guts to say.

i heard no more stories.
but i should be grateful i still hear few laughters.

i concealed my disappoinment with smiles.
and try to engage with you every time i got the chance.
but my attempts failed.

i dont know what you keep inside.
but with open heart i'm waiting and ready for you to let me know.

i miss you.
i really value you.

dear bestfriend,
forget me not.
for i always love you, till the end.


yours truly,
nfhms.

zoo negara, kemensah, nong & jimmy.

from left, clockwise: boyfriend, boyfriend's friends, boyfriend's friend's girlfriend, girlfriend.

sayang's shoes torn up, again. one after another. so he has to wear his sport shoes.
he looks funny.hee~

i fed the gigantic elephant a sugarcane.
i can see its big and round nosestrils at the end of its trunk.
it's pink.and i screamed as it grabbed the sugarcane.

tiger slept.lions slept.others slept too. =.='
i was so depressed.

i enjoyed the show by BART? BARD? BUTT? (whatever) the sealion.
he's smart and cute.i started to think to have one.if only i was allowed.
i waited for the dolphin but there was none. ):
but i saw the penguins swam.awww, they're so fuckin' cute!

well,the monkeys were really camwhores!
they posed, posed and posed.
i spotted one male monkey.i think he's handsome.he smiled at me, acted as if he knew that i was recording his movements.then, he ran.i think he's shy!

my friends and i continued the journey to kemensah waterfall.
i captured the scenic views.houses at the hill, at the valley, are all beautiful..very very beautiful...sayang said i can have one like that in the future.i smiled.
it is a public holiday, kemensah is full with cars and of course, people.
so, we cancelled our plan to splash ourselves with water.haish..
the car's skirt got scretch somemore.aiyo...

our tummies crocked.
so we went to nong & jimmy restaurant and filled our craving tummies with seafoods.i still remember the taste of the steam siakap.the delicious seafood tomyam.the kangkung belacan...i drooled even before the boyfriends ordered the menu.yummy!

i appreciate all these moments.
it meant to be kept forever.


p/s: can i ask for more trips like this again, sayang?


smiling all the way from morning,
nfhms.

us

this is what i liked, always like, and will forever like about us.

when we start our day separately,
we will wear the same colour for our outfits.

i wear green,
you wear green.

you wear white,
i wear white.

i wear red,
you wear red.

you wear black,
i wear black.

i think
we're cute in our own way. (:


love you always,
nfhms.

take me out

I received a phone call from ntv7. They asked me to go for the audition for a new reality programme called ‘take me out’. It is a so called dating show.

I am not in searching for a partner. I already have one.

But many agreed me to go for it.
to make it as a platform to create a name.
to uplift the reputation.

I am not desperate to get acknowledgement from the world. I already have my own world.

Still, I went for the interview (not sure what is my main intention of going there) with few friends as my companion. Unfortunately, I got they involved with it too. Ntv7 insisted them to fill in the form.

A day later,
I received a phone call from ntv7 again. I’m selected to be the contestant. So do my guy friends.

What the hell have I gotten myself into?

I don’t have any idea. Please take me out from here…


screaming OMG,
nfhms.