doubts on teaching profession :/

Day after day
Week after week
It has been a month or so since I started my practicum.

I can't even describe how I feel about it.
One minute I'm on the top of the world, another second I can cry a river.

Without doubt, teaching is the noble-st profession above all else.
Without educators, who are doctors? who are architects? who are scientists? and the list could go on.
Having to write the previous sentence, I feel the responsibility. I can feel the burden.

The first time I entered the school, it started as beautiful as Megan Fox.
To my disappointment, it's later on changed into hell.
I was bullied by them almost everyday.
I conducted their extra classes and the money goes into their pockets.

I enjoy sharing stories and exhanging ideas with my students.
Their participation are like my motivation boosters.
I melt when I see they laugh and thinking about all of these I am inspired to teach.
They are a bunch of sweethearts.
but sometimes they can be such a pain in the neck.
They hardly hand in their homework. They show no interest in some lessons.
It pinched me in the heart.

I don't find enough satisfaction in teaching.
I don't know if I could find any.
Even if I did, I know it won't last long.

Teaching needs passion,
To my disgrace, I don't have one.


yours truly,
nfhms.

finding a time

dear diary,

i miss spending time with you. how i wish i could turn back time and make it stop the moment we want it. i hardly enjoy my life now. i'm struggling to survive this practicum periods. there are so many things to be done and yet there is so little time. i wish i could share with you, just like how i used to before...

surviving,
nfhms.

boring.

moved into the house already.
few basic stuffs have been set up. (:
but still,
i feel lonely.

coz i am alone.
wey cuzzie,
cepat la datang sini!

this house is big.
i think it's nice and cozy too.
and of course, if the allowance is out,
i'm gonna spend a lot on it. ;p

well,
many thanks to abah.love you!


embracing life without transportation,hah.hah.
nfhms.

AE, Ae, aE, @.e

mak & abah is here.
and i feel extremely happy about that. (:

they gonna be here for a week.
and i think that's quite a time.
so, abah is planning for hotel tour. hah.hah.

i'm stretching my brain,
working on my research proposal.
urgh! malasnya...

anyway,
gotta work on it.
no matter what.

p/s: need motivation booster. :p


sedang berusaha,
nfhms.

loving myself,

since everyone went back to their home sweet home,
i decided to went out.alone...

so, i wandered around at shopping mall.alone..
there's a crazy sales going on at CP
but truth be told, nothing's interesting to me.

i bought some 'women stuff' that i really need at this moment.
i feel relieved because without it, my days will be disasters!

i stepped into the small spa,alone..
and got myself a nice manicure treatment. (:

and i love it!


i treated myself a grande of java chip
and read magazines at starbuck.alone..

and now,
as i'm writing this entry,
i'm still alone in this lonely room.

anyway,
i think i enjoyed my outing today. hee~
and
by the way,
mak & abah will be here tomorrow.can't wait!


signing off,
nfhms.