I Am Not A Gambler

indecisive.
to go wild or to sit in a dark corner alone.
to let it out or to keep it hush.
to dissappear or to endure.

indecisive.
to follow the heart or to listen to the head.
to be selfish or not.
to play safe or to play hard.

indecisive, still.
for every decision i make, i am scared of the consequences.
whether it will turn out better or become worse than you could imagine.

i am not a gambler.
and that makes you feel,
you're on the safe side. aren't you?

aside.

these tears.
only shed
when...
ignorance takes place.

for once,
you have never made it up to me.
not even in subtle ways.