jumping up & down

a simple call would make my world go round.
a simple text would make me jump up and down.











love you sampai mati!,
nfhms.

di mana oh! di mana

mahukan dia...

rindu,
nfhms.

like a cotton candy

"when you hold it too tight, it dies.
when you hold it too loose, it flies."

p/s: tiba-tiba rasa macam feel brand new pulak.heh~

want the best for us,
nfhms.

another day

another day spent.
another day of smiles and laughter.
another day to remember.

p/s: credit to A for the lovely pic! *hugging u babe* (:


grateful,
nfhms.

it's there, before my eyes.

I saw it.
I saw the house.
I was speechless.

There was no sound that I could make.
But there were so many things running through my mind.

It was so beautiful. It looked so elegant.
Standing still on top of a hill, surrounded heavily by green trees and a wide view to serve the eyes.
It was so beautiful. It looked so expensive.

It struck my heart.
Not for the memories. Not for what I have missed.
Knowing who you are now, knowing who you were before.
I couldn’t help but think.
What a change have you went!
I couldn’t help but think.
Why didn't life treat you well?
I couldn’t help but think.
How are you actually doing?

Because I couldn’t imagine myself being in your shoes.

I feel sorry.
For sometimes I threw words
like I knew everything. like everything is so easy.
But having to look at it, I understand how hard it is.
how bad it is capable to hit you.
and why we could fight over these things.

It wasn’t easy. It wasn’t that simple.
Being so used to it and lose it in a blink of eye could make you insane.

It is traumatic. It is indeed unbearable.




p/s: please hang in there...



offering strength,
nfhms.

food galore!

yesterday was Saturday.
i mean, another Saturday.
what i'm trying to say is another Saturday left me. T.T

i had sleeping marathon.
damn! it was good.seriously! you should try.

last night, i woke up with an empty tummy. @.@
suddenly i have the urge to eat so many things.
grilled chichken chop, subway, tom yam, steam siakap, steamboat, KFC, checheongfun, satay, all these crossed my mind.
okay, he likes to stuff me with foods.so, don't blame me when suddenly i have a big eating desire.

so,
i ended up eating grilled chicken chop with black pepper sauce and kerang rebus only.because these two menu have made my small tummy full and i can barely breathe.haha

D.U uptown is one of our favourite spots for dinner.
they have lots and loads of choices of foods.
you name it,you get it.

as always,
night ride always comes after a dinner. *wink*
and as always,
i enjoy the ride so much.


semakin demdem,
nfhms.

saturdays

Once upon a time,

Saturday is the day i've always waited.
i've waited for it before.
i'm still waiting for it now.
and i will always wait for it in the future.

Saturday is the day i keep myself free.
i won't do anything related to studies.
or anything that requires me a lot of thinking.
it is the day to lazy around on the bed.

Saturday is the day to keep things organize.
i have to keep myself organize.
and arrange my stuffs so they will be organized.

Saturday is my laundry day.
and it can be a spring cleaning day.
room, kitchen, hall, and even the car.

Saturday is the day to kill my loneliness.
i will go out with my awesome friends as companions.
we will go dinner, lepaking, sharing stories, making jokes and laugh.

Saturday is the day to celebrate life.
embracing it not only with my friends but also my loved one.
'true or dare' is our game most of the time.

Since there are not so many Saturdays left...
Now..

Saturday is the day i've always waited.
for he is available only on Saturday.
most Saturdays, i will spend quality time with him.
just the two of us.him and i.
it is the day we express our love.
we snuggle in the cinema,
we feed each other dinners,
and we hold hands in the night rides.
we chill at awesome places and enjoy the music played.
we are rejoiced with smiles, laughter, hugs, and kisses.

i love Saturdays.
Saturdays make my life complete.

my Saturdays are going to be remembered all the time.


Saturday lover,
nfhms.

just another bad day

Today was not turned out as I expected.

Losing someone we love is a fear to everyone. It is inevitably for one to feel insecure. I completely understand that.

Every thing happens for a reason. And that explains my action. I know it could raise a sudden doubt if you were to find it (and you did). Sacrifice is not something that I would prance about. Who prances about thing that is sincerely done? We won’t call sacrifice is a sincere act then. Correct me if I’m wrong.

I don’t want you to feel bad knowing that I’m willingly troubling myself for you (you may be feeling this way). By all means, I don’t feel that troubles me at all. After all, it is you – the only one I love – that I helped. Knowing your situation, I don’t want to burden you more with my can-be-solved problem. So please, at one moment, please look at this thing from my view.

I could tell you to avoid this from happening. But what I wrote earlier is the reason I hid it from you. I’m sorry.



being reserved,
nfhms.

baby

Looking at the calendar, this semester is heading to its ending soon. There are so many things to be completed within the time left. And that means I actually have less than two months to savor the life I have here.

I spend less time with him due to the packed classes and burden of assignments. He has started the business and it makes our time clashes most of the time. Unlike how it used to be before when he had plenty of time to attend to my needs, we seldom have quantity and quality time to spend together now. And I hate this fact.

He seems beyond my reach. Knowing there is not much time left, I FEEL ABANDONED. I can understand the situation but IT IS SO HARD TO BEAR WITH IT – like a dagger strikes through my throat and goes into my heart. All these things make me nothing but A CHILD.

Literally, I miss him so bad.

missing my love,
nfhms.

great escapade

In the midst of hectic and pack classes,
I found my way for a little gateway.
The trip became even more meaningful with the companions of him and a few so-called bestfriends.

It’s AWESOME!


Having candle light dinner at the beach couldn’t be any more romantic. The waves and the breezes had taken away my tiredness after 3 hours of not so smooth flight.


We wet ourselves with our own sweats late night at night clubs. Frankly, there are a lot lot and lot of clubs there. You can dance along the street if you want to. Some night club open 24 hours and some parties start at 2am - which definitely wowed me! I danced with him and he looked at me – one kind of look. I got embarrassed, buried my face into his chest and he wrapped me tightly and laughed.


We went around the town with the scooter that we rented. Okay, the traffic is really packed. That’s the reason we didn’t rent a car. When I said it is packed, I really mean it. The street is so small. You’ll hear the honking sound for almost every 5 seconds. Can you imagine how annoying is that? But as time passed by, I get used to it. ;p

There were many ‘sales’ tags hung at almost every shop. I was very excited. Bersemangat nak shopping! And there was a massive Roxy & Quicksilver sale which the sale is up to 90%. OMG! I rushed there and got myself a set of bikini that he chose for me opss! and a few other garments and a slipper.

Kuta beach is like beach of people.There were so many people embracing the good view, the waves, and the breezes. Once again I can fill smooth sands between my toes. We filled our tummy with the famous Bakso – Scrumptious! But I don’t eat the balls. Hee~


I got a temporary tattoo at the back of my left shoulder. So does my friends, except him. He got back massage for MYR7.ngee~ There are also many pretty and irresistable bracelets, necklaces, and anklets. He got himself a nice bracelet and bought an anklet for me and together, we picked a necklace which we agreed to take turn wearing it because the design that we like was sold out.As the sun set, we took a stroll at the beach. The guys’ eyes were opened very widely – mencuci mata mereka. :O

The guys went surfing. Like little children who were so eager to surf, after 20 minutes they went surfing, they got carried away by the waves heading to the right of the beach which was far from our spot. Watching them was really fun. Hahaha.


It was a really great escapade. I can see how happy he was and how he enjoyed every time spent together.
It is another unforgettable memories and I’ve started missing the place.


from Bali, with love


love,
nfhms.

a tale of a pair of shoes

never had i thought accompanying a man shopping could break my ankles.
my back hurts to death.

for a pair of shoes,
i wandered around the vast sunway pyramid for like 5 hours.
inspired by 'forest gump'(haha), i energized
that we went into each and every footwear shop including jusco and parkson.
phew!


'i like this one, but...'

'okay tak this one?'

'ala...last one aa?'

'lets go to mid?'

it was a wrong time to go shopping, i would say.
there is no more 'sale' going on...none at all.

but i enjoyed went shopping with him.
great jokes, massive laughters, funny arguments.


p/s: pardon the title.this is definitely NOT a tale.haha


wants to shop somemore,
nfhms.

too soon

by right, by now,

i should be:


prepared.

stronger.

independent.

sturdy.

cooler.

wiser.

reserved.


so, when it hurts,
it doesn't hurt that much.


hurtful,
nfhms.

have faith in us

ffffinally,
i said it.
we said it.

we are scared.

everything's gonna be alright.
we believe so.


have faith,
nfhms.

missing him is a beautiful pain

people say that they find love as if it is hidden by a rock.
love takes many forms and it is different for any man and woman.
what they find then is a certain love. - Mitch Albom, 2008.

and i found a certain love with him;
a grateful love,
a deep and pure love,
a blissful one,
a love that makes me alive,
helps me grow stronger,
presents me a happy life,
one that I knew, above all else,
is irreplaceable.


FS


p/s:
my day is good.but it will be a thousand time better if you're around.
i miss you badly. *listening to Need You Now - Lady Antebellum and slowly slipping under the blanket*


yours truly,
nfhms.

kl heritage hunt 2010

unbelievable.
someone like me
who is always having a backache,
complaining it's tiring to walk a long distance,
who always wish for piggy back rides,
someone like me
who can easily get pissed off and make faces
yang banyak kerenah mengade-ngade,

would WON the 3rd place of KL Heritage Hunt - december 18, 2010?

well,
believe it.i did it.i won.yay!

to go to 8 checkpoints
and complete the task at each stop

1st-matic field : lastik a can with marbles from a 10 metres distance
2nd-little india : find a 'steel bird'
3rd-kl sentral : find a pillar that wrapped with the oldest adv on NST newspaper
4th-petaling street : find a lot number for (i forgot the name of the shop)
5th-central market : batik painting
6th-dataran merdeka : find in what year (Masjid Jamek, Cathedral of St. Marry, Textile Museum) was built?
7th-masjid kg.baru : eat 2 bowls (per team) of bubur lambuk
8th-klcc art gallery : find the selected drawings and fill in the details of them


and getting place in the top 3,
is really an achievement.



















he smiled and said "i'm proud of you."


proud of myself too,
nfhms.

awan nano

Lihat ke arah sana
Serakan warna dan berarakan
Awan
Pabila terik panas
Segera hadirnya memayungi diri

Pabila kau dahaga
Sesegera turun hujan melimpahkan kasihnya
Pabila kau katakan
Akulah awan itu yang kau mahu

Begitulah awan nano
Setia melindungi diri
Tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano
Sering saja tak terduga hadir
Dan tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Kasihnya
Kasih tiada banding
Setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua

Awan kekasih sebenarmu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Lihat diriku ini
Yang sesekali pernah kau bagaikan awan
Sehingga tak mungkin terlupa
Berikan belas sedari dulu

Sehingga tak mungkin termampu saksi
Setitis pun air matamu kasihku
Sehingga kau katakan
Akulah awan itu yang kau rindu

Akulah awanmu yang sedia
Melindungi dirimu tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu

Akulah awanmu yang sering kau rindu
Dan tak terduga hadirmu walau tak tercapai jejarimu

Kasihku
Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua
Aku pelindung dirimu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Begitulah awan nano
Setia melindungi diri tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano
Sering saja tak terduga hadir
Dan tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Kasihku
Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua
Aku pelindung dirimu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu


suke (:
nfhms.

twenty-eleven

twenty-eleven celebration was absolutely fun!

i experienced sleeping in a tent for the first time after 22 years living in this world.kesian nye i...but first time is always the best.
i couldn't agree more.

snuggled under the blanket inside a tent,
with the sound of waves,
i woke up with a big smile, feeling so energetic. hee~

since young, i am not an adventurous type of person.
but surprisingly, i went for an hour kayak trip.
hebat tak? hebat kan?

i was so close to the ocean.
but i feel so secure.
it's like the ocean is mine..
seronok gile!!

beach volleyball is another thing.
the wind added up the fun of playing it.

while snorkling,
i stepped on a pointed coral and it left a cut under my feet.
it hurts.
but remember all the happiness and excitement,
the hurt, the tiredness, they all left me.

it's a great start of a new year.


p/s: happy twenty-eleven people!
have a glorious and meaningful year ahead.


(:



started to like convenient camping,
nfhms.

when words could not describe,

sometimes,
i wish i could turn back time and stop it at the moment i want
and let it lasts forever that way.

zoo negara, kemensah, nong & jimmy.

from left, clockwise: boyfriend, boyfriend's friends, boyfriend's friend's girlfriend, girlfriend.

sayang's shoes torn up, again. one after another. so he has to wear his sport shoes.
he looks funny.hee~

i fed the gigantic elephant a sugarcane.
i can see its big and round nosestrils at the end of its trunk.
it's pink.and i screamed as it grabbed the sugarcane.

tiger slept.lions slept.others slept too. =.='
i was so depressed.

i enjoyed the show by BART? BARD? BUTT? (whatever) the sealion.
he's smart and cute.i started to think to have one.if only i was allowed.
i waited for the dolphin but there was none. ):
but i saw the penguins swam.awww, they're so fuckin' cute!

well,the monkeys were really camwhores!
they posed, posed and posed.
i spotted one male monkey.i think he's handsome.he smiled at me, acted as if he knew that i was recording his movements.then, he ran.i think he's shy!

my friends and i continued the journey to kemensah waterfall.
i captured the scenic views.houses at the hill, at the valley, are all beautiful..very very beautiful...sayang said i can have one like that in the future.i smiled.
it is a public holiday, kemensah is full with cars and of course, people.
so, we cancelled our plan to splash ourselves with water.haish..
the car's skirt got scretch somemore.aiyo...

our tummies crocked.
so we went to nong & jimmy restaurant and filled our craving tummies with seafoods.i still remember the taste of the steam siakap.the delicious seafood tomyam.the kangkung belacan...i drooled even before the boyfriends ordered the menu.yummy!

i appreciate all these moments.
it meant to be kept forever.


p/s: can i ask for more trips like this again, sayang?


smiling all the way from morning,
nfhms.

us

this is what i liked, always like, and will forever like about us.

when we start our day separately,
we will wear the same colour for our outfits.

i wear green,
you wear green.

you wear white,
i wear white.

i wear red,
you wear red.

you wear black,
i wear black.

i think
we're cute in our own way. (:


love you always,
nfhms.