February 8, 2014

we never know what the future holds.

It is the 7th week of school days.
but why do I feel like I have been working for 7 years. Although sighing is not good, but I sigh everyday. Maybe I sigh every time when I feel tired.

I drive as far as 90km every Sunday morning, sometimes on a Saturday morning. Roughly, I have to spend 1 hour and 30 minutes just to sit alone in the car and cruise through the dark road. That's a torture to me especially when my tummy is getting bigger and bigger.

Early in the morning, I have even wished to get a back massage or at least a back rub. That's so wrong. I don't feel healthy to have such a wish. Sometimes, I do feel jealous towards some lucky people whose workplace is just a stone-throw away.

Today, I heard a news that my school will be involved in a 'trust school' programme. An achievement? NO. I would prefer to think that we are more actually a lab rat. Many rumours saying it demands extremely high commitment from the school especially from the teachers. I would surrender if I ever had given a chance.

I know I won't be able to devote myself to my work...for I long and yearn to be by my husband's side. All I wish is to get to live under the same roof with him, eat the same meal with him, sleep on the same bed with him, every single day.

what will happen to me?