awaited moment flew, away with the sunrise.

in rage, in rush
i didn't wake up in hush.

in the clueless state, in a sudden blink.
i feel so empty.

in pain, i am sad.
oh! i am alone on my bed.


wait-er,
nfhms.

urgh...

kenape mesti nak STRESS?

yang mengalami stress,
nfhms.

an attempt to kill the loneliness

sunyi...
meskipun kau ada di sisi.

loner,
nfhms.

i am not dumb, i just can't say it out.

yes,
this feeling is indescribable.

below are some lines...
quoted from fight for this love by cheryl cole lyric.

perhaps,
it could say what's burried inside.

Just know you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home...

Anything that is worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quiting out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more...

I don't know where we're heading
I'm willing and ready to go...




sucks in expressing,
nfhms.

allow me

yes...
i did it
because
i am afraid there is no tomorrow.

so,
please allow me...


sedang termenung,
nfhms.

a little prayer

When God created me,
He was showing off his best creation.
A soul filled with holy purity
A heart covered with kindness
A body with strong spirits

When God loves me,
He throws me lots and loads of obstacle.
He wants me to forget Him not.
He wants me to grow stronger.
I might not get award now and here.
But I know..
He has special gift for me up there.

When God knew
That I’m strong enough,
God put bigger difficulties on my path.
To train me to be more patient
To teach me to have faith
To show me how things work in reality
To remind me He is always there for me.

and so...

dear God,
i am nothing more but a servant of you,
who walk on the earth in humility,
please listen and answer to my prayers,
is all what i ask for...ameen.


full of flaws,
nfhms.

...

i lied.

gelap

tika begini aku sendiri
kau menyepikan diri...

jauh,
nfhms.

against all odds

Some things are better left unspoken
I couldn’t agree more
Though, there are things that need to be told for its later consequences could be more harmful.

After all the days of despair
I never hope to see the rainbow again
Because I know,
The rainbow comes just to slip away.

It pinched my heart.

I am now dancing on broken glass
I realized I couldn’t hold the pain

I started to think of what I have
And to think that this chance I nearly lost
I feel like giving up

So I am holding on to your words;
This feeling is mutual
And I am willing to wait
For things to be real..

Take your time
Because,
In this agony
I still found a little happiness…



yours truly,
nfhms.

miss you already

i missed you.

i have missed you.

i miss you.

i am missing you.

i will miss you.

always have.always will.


p/s: i hate to see your back.





yours truly,
nfhms.

미 안합니다 (i'm sorry)

hmm...
i just can't hold it.
it's too much.

i'm sorry. ):

but you sounded so cold.
you sounded unhappy.

is that true?
if it's true,
is that a sign?