October 16, 2013

one year passed by.

i've been here for one year. 
and i've learnt so many things. 

i came here reluctantly. but i came here in hope this place will strengthen my faith, make me a better person, and take me closer to Allah. 

but some people here just proved me wrong. they are full with hatred and jealousy.

they point finger and only recognize my weaknesses. they deny my strength. they create stories. they did everything to show that i am the BAD one. i'm not a perfect human, i'm full of flaws but i'm learning. 

living in a society, there are times we have to put fake smiles. and you crush that smile 10 times harder. and that makes 100 times harder for me to accept it. 

hating the people i work with,
an educator. 

October 9, 2013

moving in


a happy weekend wife,

October 8, 2013

one year

one year.
at this place.
still adjusting.
still in denial.

one year. 
at this place.
still complaining 
about the very same things.

one year.
at this place.
discover new perspectives.
reflected on the saints.

one year.
at this place. 
some parts of me have changed.
some remain. 

one year.
at this place. 
never once,
i taste satisfaction. 

October 6, 2013

at its roughest

this path is at its roughest. 
the cold wind is taking over. 
but i'll be waiting. 

in vain, 

October 4, 2013

In Love Again

he is by my side. 
and i sleep in his arms. 
once again, 
i'm in love. 

he is right next to me.
so close i can hear his heartbeats.
once again, 
i'm in love. 

i just wanna be this close to him. 
i don't want to leave this bed. 
i wish time paused at this moment. 
cos i'm in love. 
in love again. 

yours truly,

October 3, 2013

I Still Believe

You look in my eyes 
And I get emotional inside
I know it's crazy 
But you still can touch my heart
And after all this time 
You'd think that I 
I wouldn't feel the same
But time melts into nothing 
And nothing's changed 

I still believe 
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again
I had a dream 
Someday you and me
Will find ourselves in love again 

Each day of my life
I'm filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I 
I'm not the desperate type 
If there's one spark of hope 
Left in my grasp 
I'll hold it with both hands 
It's worth the risk of burning 
To have a second chance 

No no no no no no 
I need you baby 
I still believe that we can be together
If we believe that true love never has to end 
Then we must know that we will love again. 

October 1, 2013

For Him, the one and only.

it's october. 
so many things have changed. 
especially myself. 

i am now a wife. a wife who shares her life with the husband in distance. 
who would have thought i ended my bachelorette life at the age of 25. and who would have thought i got to live with my husband separately. 

i cherish the time we spend only on weekends and i always treasure for more. but, this kind of journey is beyond my nightmare. most of the time in this journey is lonely. 
this journey is almost empty. 

strong as it seems, deep inside, 
i am sinking in. 
so many emotions overwhelm in my heart, 
shaking my faith. 

i am here, struggling.
just to hold on.
for him, the one and only.