November 29, 2009


i was surprised.
i really am..

not really, actually.
because i kinda knew it.
but i waited.
because of so many things.

spill the beans.
you have done yours,
i don't know when will i do mine.

do i need to do for my part?
i know you can tell it yourself.

whether is it a good or a bad idea,

why do i feel much better?
why do i feel much happier?
why do i feel relieved?
why do i feel surprised? the same time

why do i feel like losing?
why do i feel like falling apart?

is it too late?
is it?
is it?

i don't know.
you tell me.

yours truly,

swimming pool! oh.swimming pool!


swimming pool..
swimming pool..

here i come!


here i am, at the Permai Villa.
oh! wait.
let us fill the tummy first.


okay.the McD's here.


it has been long since i last swimming.
splashing and drenching myself is what i used to and forever.

accompanied by two nieces and a naughty nephew,
we had a great bathe.

the pool was like an amazing beach. a blue wide ocean.
we created our own waves. we scribble our own view.
we build no sandcastle but we did platform jumping.

all i heard was laughter. laughter. and laughter.
when i dived, i saw bubbles.
some are big, some are small.

i jumped and i dived.
i swam and i drowned.
i swallowed the tasteless water.
i closed my eyes and laughed.

the rain poured down not long after that.
but i refused to climb up the pool wall.
i took a last deep dive.
i heard the rain hit the water above me.

i miss the sound of the rain.
and i miss the taste of it.
i went up to the surface
and took a deep satisfied breathe.

i was dancing the rain.
i spread my hands and looked up to the gray skies.
again, the rain hit my face.
gently streaming down through my eyes,
coming down to my nose,
and slipping into my purple lips…

it was cold and my body was shivering.
i waited for a back-warm-hug to comfort me as always.
but i felt colder and colder. i shuddered and shuddered.

not until i realized, i was alone there.
i drew my steps home as the wind blew my frosty body.

i wasn't sad. nor i felt disappointed.
but a flawless satisfaction.

it was an awesome moment, anyway.

rain lover,

p/s: the kids went up even before the rain came down. (: