surprise!

i was surprised.
i really am..

not really, actually.
because i kinda knew it.
but i waited.
because of so many things.

spill the beans.
you have done yours,
i don't know when will i do mine.

do i need to do for my part?
i know you can tell it yourself.

whether is it a good or a bad idea,

why do i feel much better?
why do i feel much happier?
why do i feel relieved?
why do i feel surprised?

and..at the same time

why do i feel like losing?
why do i feel like falling apart?

is it too late?
is it?
is it?

i don't know.
you tell me.


yours truly,
nfhms.