up and hating it

it is 4 in the morning.
and

i am up.
and...
i am hating it. =.='

hush hush eyes..
go back to sleep, will you?

pweesh?



yours truly,
nfhms.

..and i was safe in your love.

how sweet!

loves first kisses.hush...

the lingering caresses of two hearts
unwilling to break the spell of ages.

you came to me.
bourne on the breath of hope.
...and i was safe in your love.

i feel you.
in my blood, in my bones.
your heart beats out the rhythm of my joy.
an intricate and intoxicating dance.

i
know
you.

the end is near.no, it already happened.
oh no!

fear not,my love.

for even the darkest hour,

i
am
here..


love,
nfhms.


...and i was safe in your love.

how i hate myself

I hate that you changed.
I hate that you’re the same.
I hate that you ignored.
I hate how you’ve stayed.
I hate how I cry.
I hate how you make me smile.
I hate how I miss you.
I hate how I feel.
I hate how it hurts.
I hate that it’s my fault.
I hate that it’s yours.
I hate that I can’t be around you.
I hate how I’ve found out who you truly are.
I hate that I can’t tell you any of this.
But most of all, I hate how I can’t hate you,
Not even a little.
I hate how I still love you.

love triangle

Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind

There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows

While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good

I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem

I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

sacrifice

Every night I fall asleep
Thinking of you
Till you appear in my dreams
And we’re together again

Until I wake up
Saying your name
And though
I wish I could have you
And that you love me like
I love you.

Yet I fight these feelings
I fight the pain
To still be with you
No matter it is sunny or in the rain

Though days be passing by
And every night I shed my tears
Because I cant help it any longer
And I’m not stronger as I used to be

You become my weakness
Unbearable sadness
Has overshadowed my happiness
I become so weak, so helpless.

This is the strongest feeling
A girl or anyone could have in the heart
This is the way I feel
And I will remain the way I am
Even though I am so hurt inside.