Today was not turned out as I expected.
Losing someone we love is a fear to everyone. It is inevitably for one to feel insecure. I completely understand that.
Every thing happens for a reason. And that explains my action. I know it could raise a sudden doubt if you were to find it (and you did). Sacrifice is not something that I would prance about. Who prances about thing that is sincerely done? We won’t call sacrifice is a sincere act then. Correct me if I’m wrong.
I don’t want you to feel bad knowing that I’m willingly troubling myself for you (you may be feeling this way). By all means, I don’t feel that troubles me at all. After all, it is you – the only one I love – that I helped. Knowing your situation, I don’t want to burden you more with my can-be-solved problem. So please, at one moment, please look at this thing from my view.
I could tell you to avoid this from happening. But what I wrote earlier is the reason I hid it from you. I’m sorry.
being reserved,
nfhms.
March 18, 2011
March 17, 2011
baby
Looking at the calendar, this semester is heading to its ending soon. There are so many things to be completed within the time left. And that means I actually have less than two months to savor the life I have here.
I spend less time with him due to the packed classes and burden of assignments. He has started the business and it makes our time clashes most of the time. Unlike how it used to be before when he had plenty of time to attend to my needs, we seldom have quantity and quality time to spend together now. And I hate this fact.
He seems beyond my reach. Knowing there is not much time left, I FEEL ABANDONED. I can understand the situation but IT IS SO HARD TO BEAR WITH IT – like a dagger strikes through my throat and goes into my heart. All these things make me nothing but A CHILD.
Literally, I miss him so bad.
missing my love,
nfhms.
I spend less time with him due to the packed classes and burden of assignments. He has started the business and it makes our time clashes most of the time. Unlike how it used to be before when he had plenty of time to attend to my needs, we seldom have quantity and quality time to spend together now. And I hate this fact.
He seems beyond my reach. Knowing there is not much time left, I FEEL ABANDONED. I can understand the situation but IT IS SO HARD TO BEAR WITH IT – like a dagger strikes through my throat and goes into my heart. All these things make me nothing but A CHILD.
Literally, I miss him so bad.
missing my love,
nfhms.
March 3, 2011
a fact - based on true events
it's funny how annoying a person can be.
they are undeniably born stupid. they are still lingering with things that are completely over. education qualification is merely a scroll. nothing more.
these people are very selfish. pretend like they care about others. as if! they are very manipulative in twisting lines, demand people to consider their pathetic conditions, and act like a big winner at the end of the game.
they hunger for attention. parading the god of the devil with angel's mask on their faces. they seek publicity in disgusting manners which is indescribable by words. only they know how to perform actions as such.
they trouble people a lot. create messes and let others pay. some parts are lacking in them which deny the qualities of human beings. they are monsters. they don't have sense of guilt and shame.
i don't mind people do bad things
as long as it doesn't cost others.
bad things mean it's only between you and yourself, or maybe God.
don't chain messes and let others involve.
find better things to do that can benefit you.
the one who doesn't appreciate people as described above,
nfhms.
they are undeniably born stupid. they are still lingering with things that are completely over. education qualification is merely a scroll. nothing more.
these people are very selfish. pretend like they care about others. as if! they are very manipulative in twisting lines, demand people to consider their pathetic conditions, and act like a big winner at the end of the game.
they hunger for attention. parading the god of the devil with angel's mask on their faces. they seek publicity in disgusting manners which is indescribable by words. only they know how to perform actions as such.
they trouble people a lot. create messes and let others pay. some parts are lacking in them which deny the qualities of human beings. they are monsters. they don't have sense of guilt and shame.
i don't mind people do bad things
as long as it doesn't cost others.
bad things mean it's only between you and yourself, or maybe God.
don't chain messes and let others involve.
find better things to do that can benefit you.
the one who doesn't appreciate people as described above,
nfhms.
February 27, 2011
February 22, 2011
great escapade
In the midst of hectic and pack classes,
I found my way for a little gateway.
The trip became even more meaningful with the companions of him and a few so-called bestfriends.
It’s AWESOME!
Having candle light dinner at the beach couldn’t be any more romantic. The waves and the breezes had taken away my tiredness after 3 hours of not so smooth flight.
We wet ourselves with our own sweats late night at night clubs. Frankly, there are a lot lot and lot of clubs there. You can dance along the street if you want to. Some night club open 24 hours and some parties start at 2am - which definitely wowed me! I danced with him and he looked at me – one kind of look. I got embarrassed, buried my face into his chest and he wrapped me tightly and laughed.
We went around the town with the scooter that we rented. Okay, the traffic is really packed. That’s the reason we didn’t rent a car. When I said it is packed, I really mean it. The street is so small. You’ll hear the honking sound for almost every 5 seconds. Can you imagine how annoying is that? But as time passed by, I get used to it. ;p
There were many ‘sales’ tags hung at almost every shop. I was very excited. Bersemangat nak shopping! And there was a massive Roxy & Quicksilver sale which the sale is up to 90%. OMG! I rushed there and got myselfa set of bikini that he chose for me opss! and a few other garments and a slipper.
Kuta beach is like beach of people.There were so many people embracing the good view, the waves, and the breezes. Once again I can fill smooth sands between my toes. We filled our tummy with the famous Bakso – Scrumptious! But I don’t eat the balls. Hee~
I got a temporary tattoo at the back of my left shoulder. So does my friends, except him. He got back massage for MYR7.ngee~ There are also many pretty and irresistable bracelets, necklaces, and anklets. He got himself a nice bracelet and bought an anklet for me and together, we picked a necklace which we agreed to take turn wearing it because the design that we like was sold out.As the sun set, we took a stroll at the beach. The guys’ eyes were opened very widely – mencuci mata mereka. :O
The guys went surfing. Like little children who were so eager to surf, after 20 minutes they went surfing, they got carried away by the waves heading to the right of the beach which was far from our spot. Watching them was really fun. Hahaha.
It was a really great escapade. I can see how happy he was and how he enjoyed every time spent together.
It is another unforgettable memories and I’ve started missing the place.
from Bali, with love
love,
nfhms.
I found my way for a little gateway.
The trip became even more meaningful with the companions of him and a few so-called bestfriends.
It’s AWESOME!
Having candle light dinner at the beach couldn’t be any more romantic. The waves and the breezes had taken away my tiredness after 3 hours of not so smooth flight.
We wet ourselves with our own sweats late night at night clubs. Frankly, there are a lot lot and lot of clubs there. You can dance along the street if you want to. Some night club open 24 hours and some parties start at 2am - which definitely wowed me! I danced with him and he looked at me – one kind of look. I got embarrassed, buried my face into his chest and he wrapped me tightly and laughed.
We went around the town with the scooter that we rented. Okay, the traffic is really packed. That’s the reason we didn’t rent a car. When I said it is packed, I really mean it. The street is so small. You’ll hear the honking sound for almost every 5 seconds. Can you imagine how annoying is that? But as time passed by, I get used to it. ;p
There were many ‘sales’ tags hung at almost every shop. I was very excited. Bersemangat nak shopping! And there was a massive Roxy & Quicksilver sale which the sale is up to 90%. OMG! I rushed there and got myself
Kuta beach is like beach of people.There were so many people embracing the good view, the waves, and the breezes. Once again I can fill smooth sands between my toes. We filled our tummy with the famous Bakso – Scrumptious! But I don’t eat the balls. Hee~
I got a temporary tattoo at the back of my left shoulder. So does my friends, except him. He got back massage for MYR7.ngee~ There are also many pretty and irresistable bracelets, necklaces, and anklets. He got himself a nice bracelet and bought an anklet for me and together, we picked a necklace which we agreed to take turn wearing it because the design that we like was sold out.As the sun set, we took a stroll at the beach. The guys’ eyes were opened very widely – mencuci mata mereka. :O
The guys went surfing. Like little children who were so eager to surf, after 20 minutes they went surfing, they got carried away by the waves heading to the right of the beach which was far from our spot. Watching them was really fun. Hahaha.
It was a really great escapade. I can see how happy he was and how he enjoyed every time spent together.
It is another unforgettable memories and I’ve started missing the place.
love,
nfhms.
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