I Still Believe

You look in my eyes 

And I get emotional inside

I know it's crazy 

But you still can touch my heart

And after all this time 

You'd think that I 

I wouldn't feel the same

But time melts into nothing 

And nothing's changed 

I still believe 

Someday you and me

Will find ourselves in love again

I had a dream 

Someday you and me

Will find ourselves in love again 

Each day of my life

I'm filled with all the joy I could find

You know that I 

I'm not the desperate type 

If there's one spark of hope 

Left in my grasp 

I'll hold it with both hands 

It's worth the risk of burning 

To have a second chance 

No no no no no no 

I need you baby 

I still believe that we can be together

If we believe that true love never has to end 

Then we must know that we will love again. 

For Him, the one and only.

it's october. 

so many things have changed. 

especially myself. 

i am now a wife. a wife who shares her life with the husband in distance. 

who would have thought i ended my bachelorette life at the age of 25. and who would have thought i got to live with my husband separately. 

i cherish the time we spend only on weekends and i always treasure for more. but, this kind of journey is beyond my nightmare. most of the time in this journey is lonely. 

this journey is almost empty. 

strong as it seems, deep inside, 

i am sinking in. 

so many emotions overwhelm in my heart, 

shaking my faith. 

i am here, struggling.

just to hold on.

for him, the one and only.


loner,
NFHMS

I write when I miss my husband

distance means nothing,

when you're everything,

but it's human nature,

can't bear repetitive torture.

nothing more a wife could ask,

nothing more a lover would seek,

a happy home and running kids,

a passionate kiss and fondness without a leak.

sleepless nights without familiar lullaby,

the same prayer and wish i recite,

for every day and night passes by,

my husband will be by my side.

never pinch the heart,

never let the tears shed,

paint it with colours like an art,

flourish it with sweetness as desired. 

beautiful as it is described, 

no one knows where it hides,

towards heaven i wanna glide, 

with my husband as my guide. 

yours forever,

NFHMS

HOW I GOT MARRIED TO YOUR DADDY

dear kids,

it was our 3rd anniversary. he wanted to celebrate it before the date changes. everything was planned by him, and i am beyond happy being treated like a princess all day long. 

he rented a suite for me on that day. 

he took a lot of my photos. 

he played with my hair and held my hand tightly. 

he picked the dress for me. 

he was super duper sweet and i fell for him over and over again on that day.

later at night, 

he took me to a fine dining in KL. the ambience was amazingly stunning. i thought i was in france. the food was marvellous. the surprise, it blew up my mind.

we had a date. a candle light dinner date. a bit old fashion but thats what being shown in most of the romantic movies, yes? 

suddenly, a waiter came, presented me a slice of tiramisu cake on a plate. i saw the sparkle of the firework that looked like a candle. and the waiter whispered "please read the message, ma'am." 

and there it was, beautifully written on the plate with chocolate dust, 

"will you marry me?" 

oh. my. God. he proposed! officially! 

he took the diamond ring stuck in the strawberry on top of the cake, and fitted it to my finger. i couldn't stop smiling that my jaw hurted and my cheek bone cramped. 

yes, i shed tears. definitely, happy tears. Alhamdulillah... 

rindu

i miss my friends.
i miss A.
i miss Z.
i miss A.
i miss M.
above all else.

i miss him.
i miss S so bad. T.T


wanna turn back time,
nfhms.