one year passed by.

i've been here for one year. 

and i've learnt so many things. 

i came here reluctantly. but i came here in hope this place will strengthen my faith, make me a better person, and take me closer to Allah. 

but some people here just proved me wrong. they are full with hatred and jealousy.

they point finger and only recognize my weaknesses. they deny my strength. they create stories. they did everything to show that i am the BAD one. i'm not a perfect human, i'm full of flaws but i'm learning. 

living in a society, there are times we have to put fake smiles. and you crush that smile 10 times harder. and that makes 100 times harder for me to accept it. 

hating the people i work with,

an educator. 

moving in

i

am 

excited

because

we

are

moving

into 

a 

new

house

this 

weekend! 

a happy weekend wife,

FMS 

one year

one year.

at this place.

still adjusting.

still in denial.

one year. 

at this place.

still complaining 

about the very same things.

one year.

at this place.

discover new perspectives.

reflected on the saints.

one year.

at this place. 

some parts of me have changed.

some remain. 

one year.

at this place. 

never once,

i taste satisfaction. 

at its roughest

this path is at its roughest. 

the cold wind is taking over. 

but i'll be waiting. 

in vain, 

FS

In Love Again

he is by my side. 

and i sleep in his arms. 

once again, 

i'm in love. 

he is right next to me.

so close i can hear his heartbeats.

once again, 

i'm in love. 

i just wanna be this close to him. 

i don't want to leave this bed. 

i wish time paused at this moment. 

cos i'm in love. 

in love again. 

yours truly,

FS