have I told you?

have I told you lately

that I love you? 

have I told you 

that I love you to the moon & back? 

that I love you as far as the eyes can see and beyond? 

that I love you juta-juta lemon? 

have I told you

that I miss you so bad?

have I told you 

that I miss you like crazy? 

have I told you lately 

that I miss you setengah mati? 

do you know? 

do you know that

I count each day to meet you again? 

do you know that

I always dream about you? 

do you know that 

not a single second passes by without me thinking of you? 

do you ever know that 

I actually

hum songs you like when I am driving?

sing our songs when bathing?

run everytime I hear my phone rings?

jump when I know the holiday will be long?

and do you know that 

my heart goes munge-munge when I saw your name appears on my phone's screen? 

my heart skips a beat when you're being romantic? 

my heart melts when you care about the littlest things? 

that's how I fill my day without you. 

mm..maybe more likely

how my day turns out without you. 

so now dah tahu kan?

sila call & text me more & selalu balik lama-lama please..? 

hehe 

perindu husband,

nfhms.  

how do I react when I knew there is a bun in the oven?

today I nak share about my feelings masa mula-mula dapat tahu I preggy. 

husband & I sempat lah honeymoon dalam 3-4 months (lebih kurang lah) after married. and husband pon keluarkan statement he wants a kid. I pon prepare myself lah kononnya. 

after dah missed first cycle of menstruating, perasaan munge-munge dah ada dah. tapi mula-mula buat UPT sendiri, result nya negative. agak frustrated di situ. I gagah kan juga untuk buat UPT at nearby private clinic. mula-mula nampak 1 line je, terus I tarik muka. 

tiba-tiba, jeng. jeng. jeng.

doc cakap 'Congrats! You're pregnant. Now, it's 6 week & 3 days. So, you can't eat this, you must eat that, blablablabla...' 

to be frank, I tak ingat dah doc pesan apa. Excited sampai nak tertonggeng lah kiranya nak share the great news dengan husband.

masa doc cakap 'Congrats' je, rasa macam nak lompat-lompat je. nak joget-joget. nak guling-guling. mau nya tak happy. gila kau. happy lah! sebab rasa dapat tunaikan permintaan besar suami & terus rasa macam isteri mithali gitew. hahah boleh? 

lepas tu balik rumah, senyum saje. I rasa time tidur pon I senyum kot. masa tu tengah counting days nak balik KL sebab year end school holidays dah dekat. hari-hari terakhir kat sekolah yang tak best tu dipenuhi dengan senyuman juga. hehe gedik. 

anyway, I felt really grateful and I thanked God for giving us the most wonderful thing ever happens to a married couple. 

pen-excited, 

nfhms. 

first time he saw the baby on the screen.

I went for my monthly checkup yesterday morning. I felt extremely happy because husband was able to accompany me since he was still on his holiday.

This is his first time meeting my friendly doctor. He was so thrilled when he saw the baby on the 4D image on the screen. I can see his face vividly. He was clearly smiling ear-to-ear. The doctor showed him our baby's body parts and he couldn't blink his eyes. I saw the happiness on his face. He listened to our baby's heartbeats. Doctor said my baby is healthy, likes to kick (but I can't feel it because he is still small), very active. I thanked God for that.

But husband had to leave for KL after lunch. In the midst of happiness, I felt sad. He hugged me, rubbed my tummy, and spoke to our baby. I think that's cute.

Now, I'm counting days to meet him again.


i miss you sayang,
baby.

the first gift for the baby, with love. (:

today my husband went to a baby expo at mid valley. how i wish i could go together. but distance, or particularly my work is such a bitch. our goal was to get a stroller for my little bun.

many said that it is not really necessary to buy one. but some did encourage us to get one. and we think, we absolutely need one because we love going out. at first, we're confused in allocating how much should we spend for a stroller.

after doing some surveys, there were a few that caught our eyes. both of us were indirectly showed that we are actually very much emphasised on the design. malu-malu lagi lah. konon nak try to accommodate each other's feeling. we opt for a slim and easy to operate stroller.

combi offered us a good deal at the expo. husband kept sending me a few models on sale. however, the handle of the stroller turns we off. we like the idea of reversible handle but my husband thinks that it is not necessary for he wants our kid to 'see' the world. so, we put combi in kiv list.

maclaren techno xt has all the features that we looked for. but the price can't go any lower as they came out with a new design, claimed the promoter. i like the wheels. i like how macho it looks. i like the idea of having suspensions to resist a bumpy ride. i would like to sleep with it for a night if it is a human being.

being a brand-concious, husband is more of a fan of peg-perego because it is made in italy. he introduced this brand to me. the first model that i saw is a pliko mini. i think i fell in love with it. i've been eyeing this handsome stroller since then. i googled. i watched the videos. i read the reviews. but the price is more expensive than maclaren. but...i like how neat it looks when it is folded. how handy it is. how sleek it is. how light it is. it offers so many fabric designs as well.

and surprisingly today, husband got a good deal too at the expo. do you know how thrill i was?

and so, he got the catch. it was a peg-perego pliko mini neon. love at the first sight can never be wrong. *wink* i have no regret spending for this stroller. i hope my little bun will fall in love with it too.

a happy mommy-to-be,
NFHMS.

of life & death

i was admitted to the hospital last couple of days because i was suspected to be having an appendicitis.

it was all started with a severe stomachache. i can't even move or my tummy can;t even be touched. i threw up terribly, twice. i slept with my mom that night so that it will be easier for her to monitor me.

when i went to the clinic, the doctor came out with 3 assumptions which all were extremely sad to be heard. at that time, all i could think is the baby. i shed tears a few times thinking of the baby and how much i yearn for my husband to be around me. a long needle went in and out of my vein to stop the pain. but nothing worked. so i was referred to the hospital.

the journey in the ambulance was a nightmare. it bounced like hell and it hurts my tummy like hell too. i was sent to the gynae first to check up my baby. and there she/he was. alhamdulillah...my baby is healthy. i clearly heard the baby's heartbeat and saw the heart beats.

after a night at the hospital, the pain went away. i was so eager to go home but the doctor asked me to stay for another night.

alhamdulillah. i was discharged on the next day. husband fetched me and he gave me a big hug and planted a kiss on my forehead.

i feel lucky because nothing is serious and i hope i will stay healthy.
but i lost my monthly checkup card and it is somehow made me feel a little pissed off.

feeling grateful,
NFHMS