a cold night and a million thoughts of you

one cold night 

i took a ride 

cruised around 

and passed by our hideouts 

so i drove slow

i saw us through the glass windows

i thought i would be weeping

but no, i was smiling

b. 

everyday kinda thing

you are my everyday kind of thing

perks me up when nothing does

now that you're gone

my days are incomplete

empty as the dessert

you are my everyday kind of thing

now that you're gone

my day ends unsettled 

you consume my thoughts 

sure that i'm not in yours at all

you are my everyday kind of thing

everything i do it has been all about you

though now you're gone 

you are still my everyday kind of thing 

cause you are in my mind all day long. 

b. 

sleeping on a wet pillow

sombre mood slips in

between me and this sheet

my days are empty

my nights are long 

i wail with sorrow 

but levitates my heart soar

as scenes, flicker vividly

b. 

what you want matters, but what you need is more important.

i cupped my hands to recite du'a and i shut my eyes, tight. as i uttering my humble words, i feel couple of tears dropped on my palm. i started to stutter. my voice hardly came out from my throat. i've wet my cheeks. tears rolled, i couldn't hold back. i ended up curling on my praying mat, crying so hard. 

b. 

in between :/

it was quite a blow. but it is the truth, even fate cant deny or change it.

but i cant change my nature either.

things have taken its toll on me. now, i am standing in between sad and happy. 

happiness in agony, misery in happiness.

overlapping with one another and always leaving me confused and lost. 

but i want to be in it. 

i couldnt take even a step away. 

i am pretty much broken. 

fixing it up and end up broken still. 

but i thank you for being apart of patching up my broken self.

might mean nothing to you but meant everything to me. 

b.