masih tidak aku berpijak pada bumi yang nyata.

hearing about practicum and academic exercise scares the shit out of me.
i'm scared if i couldn't cope up with both tasks.
i'm scared if i couldn't get an A for both.what more to impress my supervisor.

for once, i realized that i am not ready for this.
i feel the responsibility is far more too hard that i could ever imagine.
i don't feel i deserve to carry one.
it just don't suit me best.

and for once,
i realized that i am maybe a little bit too late to turn back.


stranded and lost,
nfhms.